From this that
eludes me which I pen this – as what I say what eludes me is sleep, and from
the sleep becomes the etchings where the dreams begin. In them as they are
typed, from the tired fingers I would draw from them in the eyes which
sagged on with the thoughts that keep me awake. The waking thoughts as they
would be there are what caused me to awaken violently a few days ago – that
it would be still in the waning darkness which it would be described. That
it would become from the eyes as they wait for the medications to take
effect. It would draw from the years that passed, though what is written
in the times of the present. In the eyes of the sleeping that I would not
be able to tell if I was dreaming. In a glow of the screen looking back as
it has a life or eyes of its own while it looks back at me. It would
become in form of the grim details waiting as the body begins to fall
asleep, from the frantic details as they would appear within the dream as
they would be related here on the word processor.
In the effects of the medicine while it takes effect would follow
the details proceeding, knowing that it would be from there – in the places
I describe as a dense fog, like that which is in London. As it was all
those years ago that I have visited there, but it would often play itself
out in the memories. Within pages of journals that had been left blank on a
written notebook in one form or another, and pages which become the
development of a writer’s block that would not die – and in a writer’s block
it would follow into the duration of a writer’s sleep. From them in the
dreams that a horror of what was written becoming the harrowing truth, in
horrors that are written from the papers of killer Africanized bees – the
nightmares from their mind paint themselves true within a narrative as this.
In a duration that followed – it would become from the pages as
written before me, from tired fingers and weary eyes; I draw upon the
nightfall that becomes daylight. It comes in forms of the narrative which
is related here. Beneath the influence of sleeping pills that were
prescribed by the doctor – what I relate from the details as they rest in
the fog, it would be seen in the streets as what gathers within the
fog. Beneath them which brings into the darkness – it would become from a
foreboding and ominous sound from the sky; that sound – the hissing of
small insect wings flying in swarms. Swarms as they would become in the
color of the fog, darkness as they fly with the echo of nightfall.
Proceeding; I write from them in details that I cannot find the
words for what is remembered in waking memory but the dream descending – as
the details are there, what I describe from them would be this of the
setting resembling something of the small Du Page County city of Wheaton.
It would draw into the details as they resided within the mind of the one
who sleeps, the one who writes this. It would be covered in hornets and
locusts in the way it was described – from patterns that dwell in the pages
as they were written from the perspective of the writer who writes them.
Every hornet was stinging and biting every person who walked among the
streets and the locusts ate everything within their flight stream. It
would be as the dream was writing itself out in the mind while the eyes of
the writer were looking to the screen of the word processor. That the
hornets and locusts came out of the dense fog; and the origin of the fog
were that which cannot be described – or every rational explanation would be
left without any form of rational thought inside. In the patterns drawn
from the eyes of sleep, a dream as described which becomes the fading
shadow – to what the moon brings while they fly in with their million eyes.
Every nightmare that remains written within the mind eludes the
description as it would stand there before them, as I would put the words
to record – yet it would be as they were never written at all. From all
that stands behind the dreams as they rest beyond the walls of sleep. The
remains of what were once there are in the eyes of the sleeping scribe, the
dream, as it would remain as I closed my eyes. And from those closed
eyes, it would remain in the details of the dream as they are described
here. In a cryptic mind it would remain as it would stand in the sleep
cycles as they were written. As it becomes from the close of the dream, it
would be as it had already began. From them as they crawled like snakes in
the garden it would be among the darkness that fades within the silence of
sleep. Where the mind is awake and sees the echoes of hell within the
memory as they are written out, in a depths of a shadow as they would
dwell.
Drawn descending further into an echo, which it said among the
description that stands of the dreams in the fog, beneath a darkness that
rests in the back of the waking mind. From there which I stand – within a
street covered with flying and biting insects. Among the shadows which the
dreams had been penned , that in the places of eternal darkness that time
had walked. In the places described where the insects crawl – the hornets
as they are on the walls of buildings and the streets of Downtown Wheaton.
As it would be among them within the glow of the pages as they are written
upon a word processor in the waking hours – it remains as a shadow, a fog
as it would be seen as when they fly in their swarms; locusts eating the
food of places which provided food supply for all who lived there, young
and old alike.
When the glow of the computer screen keeps me awake, it would be
where the fingers have the thoughts of their own as it is written. Of what
stands from surfaces beneath a shadow, and in a glow of a screen when they
are written to the pages. After everything was spoken and one looks away –
the dark when it grows beneath the eyes of locusts and hornets that dwell in
the fog. The questions rise of what stirred in the imagination and the
dreams when the fog takes over the grounds. It stood looking in the
surfaces of an unwritten dream, knowing it was in the sense of a journal
page. Of them which described of myself as it would be within the dream of
going blind, and from that blindness that I heard the hissing of wings
flying and biting. From them in the hissing it would become from the
darkness that the day cannot greet – from even in broad daylight the
darkness would be seen in form of the crawling life in swarms. As it
would draw from the realities, it would become to them in a looming thunder
that fades into a distant soul of clay; beneath the glow – it would paint
the picture of a darkness that the human mind cannot begin to relate.
From the glow of the computer which it is written, and in the eyes
of a tired scribe – it would stand among the sleep as waiting beneath a
darkness that even daylight cannot kill. It becomes the void of light
which it is when the writer sleeps, and it would be as I write within the
glow of a computer screen. From the luminary glow from the monitor it
would be in the eyes of demons and angels while in the dreams described of
the locusts and hornets. In a time that is frozen which it is seen from a
pattern written in shadows, and a glow of a screen which the scribe awakens
from the dream. In them which they are written – the hissing of wings
become the loudest thing that is described, as a sound of thunder. From
luminary shadows it would draw from a world that lives inside a shadow of
darkness; a darkness that lives within the hiss of hornet’s wings – a
creation of an ominous fog.
The dream as seen describing the fog over Wheaton, Illinois,
becoming the form that echoes pages from the book of Exodus. It would be
in the ominous horror in the fog which described beneath the winter sky,
and it would be from there as it stirs. That it would stand among the
hissing of hornets and locusts which are seen swarming in the fog. Of pages
when they are written, in the glow of computer screen which are penned
from a tired hand. In the dream as it is written; the words I described of
them would remain as the shadow – an unwritten pattern; where it would be
seen within the city of Wheaton, Illinois. Gathered from a silence that
remains faint, it would become from the dreams as they are written upon a
glow of the word processor. In known times and modern years – a darkness
seen as this would remain from times that have been long forgotten.
In the forlorn mind it would be described of the dream as it would
be an incubus, yet it would stand as another shadow in the night. In
sights described from them it stands in the shadow rising in ashes that are
what remains. From the sounds of wind within the dead of winter it would
create the landscape that echoes from the faint of silence – and in them
which are recorded in a glow of a word processor. In that faint glow of a
ghostly white, it would be from the coherent thought as it would fade from
a writer’s sleep. Within the sleep, follows the fog as the darker shades
of gray echo the hiss of hornet’s wings. From their hiss between the echo
of dreams that one can hear the screams of the young and old alike.
That it would stand in the pages from the southern part of the United
States, that horror in form of stinging Africanized bees – and the
nightmares that which crawl into the memory. From them in the glow, the
dreams which I describe as the plague of insects described as the accounts
of locals that lived in the south years ago. In those accounts drawn upon
the nightmares as I wrote of them to the pages of this narrative, from a
memory that was seen from a glow of a computer screen. It would become in
the surfaced being as they are told from the horrors of the soul. From the
sleep with a writer’s nightmares fade into the darkness as it glows from the
screen of a word processor – in a writer’s journal that the dream plays
itself out, in one haunting form to a harrowing other. From them which
become a private war of prayer and sanity – it would be from them as the
dreams which are written, find themselves manifest.
From what effect these dreams echo the things that are read in the
news – the illnesses inflicted by the carriers of the West Nile and to the
plagues of insects as they are stated. The dream as it is written echoed
the pages as they were from the Book of Revelation. Darkness drawn in
pages which come about from nervous fingers running across the keys –
horrors seen within time passing from one period of sleepless hours to the
next in speculations. It would become from the luminary glow of a writer’s
word processor, and from that glow in the running of the fingers would be
the nightmares that manifest in the one’s mind. When I would hear the
stories about Africanized bees, I kept thinking about the attack that was
on me by a swarm of ground bees when I lived in Glendale Heights – since
that bee attack – I had the bizarre dreams that I describe as the hornets
swarming over Wheaton and Glen Ellyn, Illinois. That it would be
described from the dream that it appears as a fog in middle of the winter
months – and while the snow on the ground, the hornets proceed to attack the
young and the old.